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OT5 : One True Five.

Dong Bang Shin Ki. one true pairing five. you want know why ? because, as long as they five remain together, they are the most happiest person in the world. that's what Jung Yunho said.

but due to SM Entertainment 13 year slave contract, they had to separated. they had to split into two. One was HoMin which referred to Yunho + Changmin and the other was JYJ which are Jaejoong + Yoochun + Junsu. I just wish that I can get back to 2008 which was like, DBSK year? I guess. but time passed and goes on without me realised it. it's feel like a dream. 

my biggest dream is them, being together again, just like the old times. the old days. even if it takes me years, even if it takes me forever, my whole life. I'll wait until they're 5 again.

you know what I've thought after all this time ? Cassiopeia was too large at one point, that fate decided to test everyone and differentiate between real fans and fake fans. thus, fate split what DBSK is now, and see who endures and who crumbles beneath the pressure. when they comeback, those who didn't believe in them will be ashamed for not trusting in them in the first place. hence, this is what makes a true fan. trust.

there are times when I think JYJ doesn’t get the respect they deserve even from us cassies we are unable to accept “JYJ” as a new group, we always think of them as “DBSK”. have you ever thought maybe just maybe they want to be respected based on what they are doing now. as of now JYJ and DBSK are separated meaning they are two halves of a whole and both deserve to be respected apart as well as together.

before this, I never keep the faith towards them. I never believe that they will come back together as 5. but everytime I think about that, the pearl red ocean appear on my head. it just, my fandom don't want me give up. my fandom doesn't allowed me to forget about them. and because of that, I always keep the faith. I started try to think that soon, in the future, they will be back as 5. no matter what.

but slowly, it's getting harder to keep the faith, doubts are eating me alive but despite that I can't move on. something keeps holding me back.

The media has been creating an issue out of it, and the situation has turned into an offensive and defensive battle. I think it’s definite that people are curious for the thoughts from all five of us. What I want to say is that all five exist in this spot because we shared a time of precious hardships. -Shim Changmin

I belong to the Pearl Red Ocean fandom.

I wasn't there during their debut. I didn't watch them grow.

However, I am now one of the many who keep the faith .

HoMin and JYJ make up 東方神起 which will be of FIVE for always.

CASSIOPEIA is a FAMILY.

I will wait no matter how long it takes.

I want to cry every single time I hear Yunho sing. Hearing Winter Rose, I did.

I just really need a Cassie to understand my tears, and cry with me, or give me that special Cassie hug. even though my birthday already past, all I really want was,

^ this.

I really hope that they get back together, even though not in the context of being a band, at least as brothers. they’re a broken family, and it hurts to watch them be like this. their fan meet in Singapore is one day apart. chances are, SM will do everything they can so that these 2 won’t meet. I cry and cry, and I hate that I can’t do anything but cry. I can’t force SM to let them meet, I can’t send messages between the two, I can’t even meet them and let them know how much they mean to me. I hate the fact I always cry, and I can’t do anything about it. it hurts. it hurts so much, one cannot describe this feeling stirring in my fragile heart. the small ray of hope itself is like a miracle. the stans and fan wars are hell. sometimes it’s just so difficult and unbearable to keep the faith, but I know in the end it’ll be worthwhile, or at least I hope so. I can’t seem to accept this reality, all of us. we are all denying that the chances of them becoming DBSK are slim. even so, we stay strong.

you know, ever since this lawsuit, I’ve felt like the Red Ocean didn’t become red from passion and love, but from hatred and anger. it feels like the Red Ocean parted and have somehow disintegrated. cassies seem like an endangered species to me. these stans and fan wars, they are all meaningless, idiotic, and useless. this applies to all. I hate this phrase (mostly because people use it as jokes and a hip-lingo), but it’s the truth. “haters gon’ hate.”

why can’t we respect each other’s differences? yes, we may come to disagreement on certain matters, but it doesn’t mean one can create a bad reputation for our group and our fandom.

you non-Cassies are always saying, “DBSK are never getting back together. get over it.” that phrase, is like a stab in the heart, but even more so. it was a dagger plunged into the heart of Cassiopeia, and then was torn out of the Red Ocean. it was thrown on the ground and pounded on, shredded to pieces and then given back as a present. you would never understand what it’s like to suddenly break down in tears at the moment of someone’s voice. crying every night, and hiding these despised tears , it’s just harsh of you. these swollen eyes, this broken heart, this lost soul, is exhausted.

I’ve always dealt with loss with whoever and wherever. I might not have it as bad as others in the world, but that doesn’t mean I don’t know the definition of pain. DBSK to me, was and is everything. why can’t you just leave me be and respect that?

true cassies don't have to put DB5K to let others understand that they are 5 forever. we put DBSK and KNOW that they are 5. the legends that we will never give up on.

Junsu: I wonder, if I’d been on my own, could I have made it this far? I don’t believe I would have. we come here together and now, the five of us are a family.
Yoochun: even if I were to fail at a lot of things, because the members are there, I can feel like, “it will be okay! another chance will definitely come.” for me, I’d say they’re more than family.
Yunho: even though we say over and over again that we are “siblings” or “a family,” I think for me they’re more than that. it’s like they’re “me” or maybe another facet of me.
Changmin: they always believe in me and we’ve become a source of strenght for each other. before I realized it, they’d become a part of me. I think they’re an existence that is important to me as my life.
Jaejoong: we’re friends, we’re family. I think the word “comrades” describes us too. we have to continue on together. if it’s not the five of us, it’s not Dong Bang Shin Ki.

it hurts me to see pain in Changmin's eyes. even when he tries to cover it with his beautiful smile while pretending it's okay. I miss the old Changmin. for me, he's the one who changed the most. he lost the 3 of his brothers.

Yoochun, Junsu and Changmin leaving YunJae couple sit together. when can I see this again. I miss Golden Disk Awards 2008 T__T.

the many time they touched each other, the way they touch each other, look at each other, move around with each other. compared to other kpop couples, the feeling were slightly different. they don't feel fake.

DBSK is not just an ordinary group. DBSK is not just a bunch of people who are famous. DBSK has been a big part of millions of lives. they have been an inspiration to people who are losing hope. they are the sole reason why many people learned to not give up.

I can sense tears coming from Yunho eyes. but he tried his best to cover it. and it's sure hurt T_T.